This past weekend I joined a club that I hoped I never would have to and I did not join it by choice. On Thursday night I stated having a miscarriage. I always wondered if this day would come because of the high % of pregnancies that result in miscarriage. This is something I wish to never do again and I feel sorrow for women who has to go though a miscarriage. It just is not fun!
No, I did not know I was pregnant and so it was all very surprising.
No, we were not preventing from having another baby at the time.
I do not know how far along I was and really don't have a good guess. By talking to other people and reading a lot about it on the internet I was probably somewhere between 7-12 weeks along. And I am leaning a lot closer to being 12 weeks along.
I wrote out all the details in gore and all if you want to read it feel free, it is just on a different blog that is not our main stream family blog. It is very personal and not for a weak stomach. See it here.
This was physically way more than I ever expected! Honestly it was worse than I ever felt with either of my girls and now I have no baby to show for it either. Really it was sheer inconvenience. I had so many things to get ready and do and we had plans for this weekend as a family. It really slowed my life down as I had to stay home and couldn't/shouldn't really go out. My body needs rest which is really hard for me to do.
Emotionally I have been doing just fine. I know it was a blessing that I did not know about that baby because I am sure that everyone in our family would have been excited about it. Kenya has been talking about her bother for a few months now. We are all doing well and we didn't really explain any of it to Kenya. I guess I just didn't know how.
I guess it has kind of got me excited about having another baby someday though.
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